oh facebook...

So I should be finishing studying for my human sexuality course that they make us take in medical school...but it is a lot more fun to get to vent about my frustrations and have all you wonderful people read it!

So...has anyone else noticed that facebook has revolutionized our world...it has created this like "fake world" that we all live in. We make sure that we take awesome pics that we can put up on facebook, and of course our profile picture has to make us look straight good...whether that be, "woh check it out...so an so went to Africa or Cambodia" or "man she has gotten so skinny and pretty!". I have gotten a bit annoyed at facebook, because I do the same things! The worst part about it is we feel like we know people based on what they chose to put on their profile, or what they say in their notes, or what they are doing in their pics! I know I feel like I know people and I can make judgements of who they are, because well I saw this and that on facebook! Seriously Beck? It is all so silly to me, yet somehow I am in the middle of it.

I have thought for a while about giving up facebook, and devoting my time to my Lord, my husband, and studies...but somehow I am made to feel like I have to stay on facebook to stay in touch with everyone. hmmm...what about coffee or what about calling each other?! I am so confused about this, because in the recent years facebook has turned into something for me where I catch up on the latest gossip, where I see what this person said on that person's wall. The computer world has changed us, it has changed me, and I don't like it. Maybe I am just annoyed mostly because facebook is not as innocent as it used to be for me. In some ways I have created demons out of something meant to be fun. I know that I am not the only one...I mean who has been devastated when someone denied their friend offer?! WHAT?! Will you be my friend on facebook please, and they say no, and you are like crushed! Sound stupid? Well it happens (did to me!).

Does anyone else know what I mean? Am I alone in this? If my spare time that I have is going to look at facebook and worry about what is happening on facebook, I think something is off. I wonder how much of what happens on facebook glorifies God? That is the question that I think needs to be answered.

By the way, I don't think facebook in and of itself is bad at all, in fact I LOVE getting in touch with my girls from all over and being able to say hello to this person and that person just because I can...but it is not just that anymore. It has turned into a fake world that sucks me in, and I believe that I should be sucked into God's word more than I am facebook. And I wonder whether I should go on a facebook sabbatical until it can become that once again.

1 John

2: 6 "Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did."
2:9 "Anyone who claims to be int he light but hates his brother is still in the darkness."

My Bible study group is about the begin a study on the book of First John. I am really excited about it and really enjoy Tim Keller, the man who wrote it (by the way I HIGHLY recommend his series on marriage, for everyone!). So this morning when I sat down with the Bible I decided to being reading 1 John in order to try to prepare for the study which begins next week. So all that to say these verses rang loud and clear to me...BECKY HELLO!?!? Guys, there is such sin in my heart at times, and it is more than enough to drive a wedge in my walk with the Lord. I wont get too specific, but God is using my husband and his walk to really shed light on areas of my heart that are just wrong...never really seemed wrong to me, but how I can see the deceitfulness of sin. But be encouraged! In 1:9 of the same book, we are told that if we confess our sins, He is faithful and will forgive us, and PURIFY us from all unrighteousness. That is awesome to hear cause man I need some of that purification in some dirty spots that I am hanging on to. It is time to let go of those things...and it is straight hard.

Josh and I are busy studying for exams these days...which I should be doing now! :) We are taking our first step of the National Licensing Exam on June 10th and we will be seeing patients in 12 weeks! HOLY COW! Please begin praying hard for the exam...we will be studying the 5 weeks prior, about 10 hours a day, so we need the prayers and the dedication to remain faithful when it is going to be really hard. Not much else is going on in our life besides being married. Marriage continues to amaze me and it becomes more beautiful with each passing day. I keep telling my dear friend who is getting married that the hard part of engagement will be over and with each day of marriage, you grow closer in a different way. It is amazing! Ok, now to study and to learn so I can help you out when you call me with a problem! HA! Love to you all!