woh, been a long while

Ok, going to try to do better with the whole blogging thing! We have been really busy this year with rotations in the hospital, and finished a crazy hard fall semester. It is hard to believe that we are only a year and half out from getting our degree and moving on to residency! Wow! We have a lot to look forward to this spring and next year!!! I will have to keep some of that a secret so I can have more to blog about.
So the biggest thing for us in our life over this holiday season was the fact that we finished our first year of marriage!!! AWESOME!!! What a year it was. We are not like a lot of couples, we spent many nights apart (on call in the hospital), and have had to study during much of our free time, but we have made it and are stronger today than we were last year when we said "I do!". I am thankful for this first year and we keep saying that we hope for 70 more!!! Lord willing. Well to celebrate we went on a cruise to Mexico and had a great time...of course Josh loved the food, and I loved to fact that I had a reason to where all of my best friend's dresses!! haha. We are heading to Minnesota in a few days to check out the Mayo Clinic for residency! We are hoping to get an idea of what the place is really like and if it is somewhere we would like for a few years of our lives!! I am off...more hopefully before 8 months goes by, maybe?!

Micah 6

We are studying for our finals these days (in fact that is what I should be doing right this second), getting ready to finish our second year of medical school!! CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!! We will immediately begin studying for our Step 1 of the boards following this last week of finals and will take the big test in June. There has been so much going on in our lives, taking the time to be still before the Lord has not been easy to do. But I heard a verse today, that really encouraged me and I wanted to share it with you. I tend to think there are things that I do that like earn me points with God or make me lose points...and when I heard this verse it reminded me, that there is nothing I am capable of doing, except love Him.

"He has showed you, Oh man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. " Micah 6:8

my dear friend

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oh facebook...

So I should be finishing studying for my human sexuality course that they make us take in medical school...but it is a lot more fun to get to vent about my frustrations and have all you wonderful people read it!

So...has anyone else noticed that facebook has revolutionized our world...it has created this like "fake world" that we all live in. We make sure that we take awesome pics that we can put up on facebook, and of course our profile picture has to make us look straight good...whether that be, "woh check it out...so an so went to Africa or Cambodia" or "man she has gotten so skinny and pretty!". I have gotten a bit annoyed at facebook, because I do the same things! The worst part about it is we feel like we know people based on what they chose to put on their profile, or what they say in their notes, or what they are doing in their pics! I know I feel like I know people and I can make judgements of who they are, because well I saw this and that on facebook! Seriously Beck? It is all so silly to me, yet somehow I am in the middle of it.

I have thought for a while about giving up facebook, and devoting my time to my Lord, my husband, and studies...but somehow I am made to feel like I have to stay on facebook to stay in touch with everyone. hmmm...what about coffee or what about calling each other?! I am so confused about this, because in the recent years facebook has turned into something for me where I catch up on the latest gossip, where I see what this person said on that person's wall. The computer world has changed us, it has changed me, and I don't like it. Maybe I am just annoyed mostly because facebook is not as innocent as it used to be for me. In some ways I have created demons out of something meant to be fun. I know that I am not the only one...I mean who has been devastated when someone denied their friend offer?! WHAT?! Will you be my friend on facebook please, and they say no, and you are like crushed! Sound stupid? Well it happens (did to me!).

Does anyone else know what I mean? Am I alone in this? If my spare time that I have is going to look at facebook and worry about what is happening on facebook, I think something is off. I wonder how much of what happens on facebook glorifies God? That is the question that I think needs to be answered.

By the way, I don't think facebook in and of itself is bad at all, in fact I LOVE getting in touch with my girls from all over and being able to say hello to this person and that person just because I can...but it is not just that anymore. It has turned into a fake world that sucks me in, and I believe that I should be sucked into God's word more than I am facebook. And I wonder whether I should go on a facebook sabbatical until it can become that once again.

1 John

2: 6 "Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did."
2:9 "Anyone who claims to be int he light but hates his brother is still in the darkness."

My Bible study group is about the begin a study on the book of First John. I am really excited about it and really enjoy Tim Keller, the man who wrote it (by the way I HIGHLY recommend his series on marriage, for everyone!). So this morning when I sat down with the Bible I decided to being reading 1 John in order to try to prepare for the study which begins next week. So all that to say these verses rang loud and clear to me...BECKY HELLO!?!? Guys, there is such sin in my heart at times, and it is more than enough to drive a wedge in my walk with the Lord. I wont get too specific, but God is using my husband and his walk to really shed light on areas of my heart that are just wrong...never really seemed wrong to me, but how I can see the deceitfulness of sin. But be encouraged! In 1:9 of the same book, we are told that if we confess our sins, He is faithful and will forgive us, and PURIFY us from all unrighteousness. That is awesome to hear cause man I need some of that purification in some dirty spots that I am hanging on to. It is time to let go of those things...and it is straight hard.

Josh and I are busy studying for exams these days...which I should be doing now! :) We are taking our first step of the National Licensing Exam on June 10th and we will be seeing patients in 12 weeks! HOLY COW! Please begin praying hard for the exam...we will be studying the 5 weeks prior, about 10 hours a day, so we need the prayers and the dedication to remain faithful when it is going to be really hard. Not much else is going on in our life besides being married. Marriage continues to amaze me and it becomes more beautiful with each passing day. I keep telling my dear friend who is getting married that the hard part of engagement will be over and with each day of marriage, you grow closer in a different way. It is amazing! Ok, now to study and to learn so I can help you out when you call me with a problem! HA! Love to you all!

Ducks and Pharisees

So I have been dying to tell someone about the terrible encounter I had with duck mating season. I love ducks, in fact, I had one when I was a kid, her name was Daisy. I think they are the cutest things and if they were bigger I would want to squeeze them like puppies! But I have a bit of a different opinion now because of what I witnessed on my way in to school the other morning. I have never seen ducks have sex, but it was horrible. Like the worst thing you can imagine. The poor girl duck was pounced on, and held down on her little neck by the man duck's beak. I was traumatized. Thankfully the lovely encounter did not last more than a few seconds...but it seemed like forever. I had a horrible mental picture in my head all morning when I was trying to focus on class. The only thing I have seen that is closely related to this, but a bit funnier, was on my honeymoon when we drove past a donkey and a llama. Yeah...weird.

Anyway, I still love girl ducks...but I think I might be becoming a little duck sexist if that is possible. Something about the whole process seemed a bit...wrong.

I was in a meeting today with the CMA leadership team discussing a book we are reading by Os Guisness. Somehow the conversation me to have the opportunity to reminisce on something that really bugs me...about me. So before I was walking with the Lord, like when I was younger, there were a particular group of people that I really did not care for, like could not stand. Those people were the pharisees. I am thinking of no one in particular right now, but just the entourage of people in the church who live as though they have everything figured out. Well I knew deep in my heart that no matter WHAT I was never going to be like one of them. No way! Hmmm, ok, so bringing it back to the present. I have come a bit further in my walk with God these days, like at least I consider myself to now be walking with him. Over the course of the last few years, since medical school, I have seen evidence in my heart of the very thing that I have disdained. No question about it. It is there...the "I would never act like that and I have ARRIVED" mentality. It is funny, because in the midst of that self-righteousness that was taking place in my life, God was choosing to show me how off I am. I am beginning to now see that we all have a little pharisee in us and no one, no matter how great WE think we are, is exempt from a sinful and prideful nature. So when I think I have arrived, or got it all figured out...God has a way of reminding me, simply stated, that I have not. And for this I am grateful.

Enough ramblings. I am off to learn how t do a pelvic and rectal exam...nice after lunch treat. Letcha know how it goes! :)
Philippians 3

lessons must be learned

So I am trying to get better about keeping this thing semi-up to date on life. I always have so many creative ideas and I think "Man I should write a blog about that!" Well then I don't! I am trying to convince my hubby to write one too, so be on the look out for one in the near future! :)

So right now my life consists of studying and studying and more studying. We have the mother of all exams on June 10th and the prayers are greatly appreciated from now until that date! haha! So this semester is focusing on preparing for that test and learning the material from this semester itself. I must say, the most controversial class we have right now in school, and I venture to say throughout our whole medical education, is our "sex ed" class as we call it. OK people, I think most of us by now have an idea about the process of reproducing, however, this class takes it to a whole new level. Don't get me wrong there are plenty important points we need to know, but I am going to opt out of offering you the details of some of the more...disturbing parts.


Every once in a while I get the bright idea of wanting to go somewhere next year. We are young, why not? I want to head south and live in a country that speaks Spanish and learn that junk for real!! I offer the suggestion to Josh and I guess reality sets in and I know we cant, but man that would be sweet.


I think medical school has been the biggest point of growth in my relationship with Christ for many reasons, however, many of these lessons have not been fun to learn. I am a hard headed kid who apparently doesn't get things very easily. There will be plenty more of that to come in the future, but one of the biggest lessons I feel like I am learning now involves trust. I guess I never thought I had an issue with trusting the Lord, but I am being made aware that I am a little off in that statement. I have to trust God above any person, I have to trust Him to lead my heart and mind in how to follow Him. I have to trust Him with the things and people I cannot change and the reconciliation I desire. I have to trust Him to provide my heart with compassion and love when I fight those two things by my flesh.

So like school, I mean medical school, is not enough... there are quite a few more lessons that are being learned by this chica right now, and I guess that is not that terrible of a place to be. OK, enough ramblings... I am being called back to the drugs that treat leprosy. Farewell my peeps.